Tears Over Spilt Milk
Nothing beautiful is necessary.
Sunday 13 February 2011
Wait
Saturday 5 February 2011
Written
Layers
Too many jigsaw pieces of our minds
And if you look, in the distance
We'll be melting all the time
Under the heat of confusion
Under the scorch of pain
Dissolving in madness
Washing away with the rain.
When a butterfly flutters it's tiny wings
A thousand people die.
If I don't let you see my smile
A thousand children cry.
Every action, a reaction
One thing, a price
One word, a chain reaction
One bullet, one life.
So when you flippantly kiss me hard on the mouth
Or oh so gently whisper in her ear
Think of the dominoes falling
Think of the futures, my dear.
Stand
Written in September last year.
I want to stand
To replace reaction with action
To move without trigger, my fuse already lit
I want to stop knowing things
And start knowing something
My present likes the drifting
But my future creaks and rots
I want to stand
I want to make absurd, ridiculous promises
And keep them
And make you amazing, like I should be
I want to feel what you feel
And take up arms for it
Your Protector
I want to stand
I want to tell you I'm worth more than what you see
I want to tell myself I'm worth more than what I see
I want to tell you you're worth more than what I see
I want to know most things have more value than I could ever imagine
Stop sampling imitations of real things
And eat them whole
And then lick the sugar off my lips
And then bake them in my oven
And give them away, anonymously
In little scarlet parcels
I want to dance on the wind, not drift on the breeze
Be amazing enough that you want all of me
Be beautiful enough that I want all of you
But what I want and what I do are so separate
That all I can do is sit down
And think about how separate they are
And so I'm sitting on my dreams, carried by the ebb and flow of familiarity
Thinking the aimless wandering is who I am, what I need, what you need
That I'm finding myself,
When really, I'm getting even more lost
When really, I just need to stand.